When I first moved to Jacksonville in 2011, I joined Tumblr and Twitter with a running-related account. Over on Tumblr, I started finding really motivational quotes that I loved. I printed them out and put them everywhere. Whenever I was in a funk, I would read my Tumblr posts and it motivated me to get my butt out the door.
Right now, I don't care.
Last week my friend/fellow BibRave Pro Sarah wrote a similar post to this. She's tired, burnt out, and just doesn't want it right now. I'm in the exact same boat.
Yes, I'm being whiny. Yes, I know I have it good - I haven't had to deal with 20 degree weather and 3 feet of snow. I'm recovering from injury. I have a great gym to go to. Other than a random illness over the past week, my health is great. I have NYC to look forward to.
I just don't care.
A big part of this is due to my injury. In the months since I've gotten hurt, I fell out of shape quickly. Yeah, cross training has been an option, but I hate the elliptical and stationary bike at the gym. While I've stayed on top of weight training, my cardio endurance is shot. Last weekend I ran 2 miles and I felt so out of shape that I wanted to cry at the end.
The worst part of coming back from injury isn't the fear of doing too much; it's not having to balance increasing your miles with cross training; it's not staying on top of stretching/rolling while you run. The worst part of coming back from injury is having to start all over again.
When I got hurt, I was in the best cardio shape I had ever been in. I killed my half marathon PR a week before injury. Now, it's a struggle to get through 2 miles. I feel like I'm going too fast and I'm insanely slow (slow for me at least). I don't even want to go to group runs - all my friends finish way ahead of me, and I have to watch them kicking ass. The Gate River Run is coming up next week, and I can't run it because I can't get through 9 miles.
I know, I know - positive thinking is key. I just really don't care.
I'm Jenn! I'm a baker, blogger, sorta-runner, and writer living in Jacksonville, Florida!